I have struggled with weight throughout my life. During stressful times in my life, I eat. When I am anxious, I reach for a cookie (or seven). When I am lonely, ice cream fills the void. You get the picture, right? The result has been that I gained 40 pounds since my divorce. There are certainly other contributing issues including changing from an active job to a sedentary job and turning 40, but I believe that emotional eating is the major culprit. In 2009, I challenged myself physically and trained for a 100 mile cycling event. I did it for many reasons, but one was to prove that the divorce had not broken me. I also had hoped that I would lose weight. I completed the Seagull Century Ride in Salisbury, MD and was probably in the best physical shape of my life - but I did not lose weight. Last May, I challenged myself again and successfully walked a half-marathon - but again I did not lose weight.
I feel like my weight is the last thing that is sticking around from the emotional trauma of my divorce. I have tried bunches of things and have not been successful. The time has come for me to challenge myself again - and work to lose this weight!
It is time...to lose the weight...to find new ways of coping...to set a healthy example for my son...to prove again that he did not break me!